..A World of Nonsense..

not too sure where im heading. having weird thoughts. quite disappointed with myself, for having the wrong, screwed up attitude. so unrestrained...

thanks weejin and alvin t for talking and unleashing the loneliness in me.

screwed up life. siAn.

den* stepped on your garbage at 8:34 PM

ive blocked him. that was the last straw. he shouldnt have exacerbated the shitty mood i was already in. just too bad. ive tolerated and given enough. so sad -- i dont want to hear that bloody phrase from you ever again. get a life.

when i was feeling down, all i wanted to do was to play the piano. just one je t'aime would suffice. but instead, she told me to close the piano and to stop playing. i havent touched the piano for ages due to time limitation and the piano has always been the remedy for my emotional days. i had no choice but to slam the cover down and go upstairs. since i wasnt allowed romantic richard clayderman, i blasted rock music instead. music is the cure for all my pain. A.R.G.H!

i stopped myself from tearing. i want to get out of this house.

den* stepped on your garbage at 11:18 PM

wireless is pretty screwed up. apologies to those ppl whom i was talking to last night, couldnt connect back after being disconnected. hehx.

thinking abt a gathering this saturday...wondering how to go about it. the whole class? that's a lot of ppl...hmmz. but definitely great fun.

it's finally the weekend and im rotting away. woohoo! stayed back for an hour after sch ystday and talked to some of my clsmates. we hardly get the chance to really sit down and talk, since we're always engaged in lessons and rushing from place to place. quite pathetic life really. but oh wells, i think my class really rocks. :) special thanks to weiting, serene, cindy and felicia.

helping the guys make pineapple tarts tmr. why i volunteered? i dont know. hope i wont be more of a hindrance than help. just feel like being with them la. haix. breaking into rgps ystday was super fun. and hilarious. maybe it'll become a weekly adventure. i hope you'll come with us every time.

im feeling so sIAn.

den* stepped on your garbage at 8:05 PM

happy birthday to my dearest friend daphie. =)

den* stepped on your garbage at 5:25 PM

having chinese lesson now, the rest of the ppl are chatting on MSN with one another whilst the tchr is struggling to get the projector started. -__- she has officially failed to get it working. good.

really sleepy now. was dozing off during bio lecture but tried my very best to stay awake and concentrate on what the lecturer was droning on about. managed to stay awake fortunately, simply because i had no chance to take a little eye-shut. yesterday's bowling has certainly taken a toll on me. many classmates are now seeking bowling as the last resort, because they didnt manage to qualify for other CCAs. =/ what happened to the true blue passion and devotion?? sighs. guess that existed a long way back. oh wells, part and parcel of life. pretty disappointed though...

will probably go crash pins this weekend, if the pocket permits. the addiction is back. :)

2.4 run for pe tmr. sheesh. feel like running away...

take me away

den* stepped on your garbage at 5:23 PM

i hope you dont regard me as a junior.

den* stepped on your garbage at 3:52 AM

another day of draggy lessons. so far, only the chinese teacher is interesting enough. she's pretty humorous. as for the rest, they're quite dead. guess that's what the sciences do to ppl. i wish i were taking the arts. i really wish i did. then i wont be stuck struggling with maths and physics concepts. hate it. wish i was doing lit, geog and history. my gosh, the thought of the lessons being so enjoyable!! argH. shit life. but i still have to get on with it. :(

stupid tchr made me clean the whiteboard. like sheesh...you should know better and like ask someone else to do the job. i jolly well cannot reach the top parts unless i jump, and i will never ever jump cos it looks utterly ludicrous. thankfully Alvin came to my rescue, phew...saved me the embarrassment. fortunately for gentlemanly guys...hmmz. the tchr just sucks.

bowling tmr!!! long awaited!! but i'll have to lug my ball ard though, including the long walk down to the busstop and the jerky, bumpy ride to school. maybe i'll just cripple halfway. oh yeah, and did i mention, nj has many many flights of stairs. shucks. but nevertheless, i love bowling! and tmr is the only day when i knock off early and when the lessons are the slackest. yes! :)

i lost two kilograms during the orientation week due to the loss of appetite. good slimming programme, but the results are a bit drastic. im drop dead tired and there's still sickening maths. -_-

den* stepped on your garbage at 3:48 AM

lessons officially started today. and the timetable sucks totally. school ends at 5pm everyday, other than Wednesday, which is the allocated CCA day. that's like..so darn exciting. heh. had to force my eyes to stay open throughout the entire day through the lectures and tutorials. it's only Day One. i must adapt asap or i am just going to rot in nj. other than that, school's great because of the nice ppl in my class. finally got a chance to talk to Gavin today. it's weird when we talk so much on Msn but hardly speak to one another in school, heh. another addition to our class today. like wth, one more girl. win liao.

so, after stoning for the whole day, i was so delighted to be able to break out of the routine and head home. and was even more so when i finally got to talk to ogl. *phew* been day dreaming like some shit, esp during bio lecture. haha. i wish i didnt take trip....if i took lit, i'd easily stay awake. sheesh.

i am so amazed at Alvin, awe-struck in a way. my god. the rate at which he studies is really like.... -___- no comments. perhaps he's out to impress, but i believe he's truly hardworking. scary...

there's PE tmr. i bet there'll be running. shucks.

den* stepped on your garbage at 3:33 AM